Back to Reality

I had to go back to work today after having 11 glorious days off. It sucked. In so many ways. For starters, I have this weird thing where I have a hard time falling asleep when I know I need to get up the next morning. I purposely didn't take a much needed nap yesterday afternoon because I wanted to be able to fall asleep, but I still lay there, and lay there, and lay there. I finally started getting drowsy around 1 am, but then I started worrying because Margie hadn't stirred yet (no, my 15 month old still doesn't sleep through the night...or in her crib all night...) Sure enough, just as I drifted off she woke up. I went and collected her from her crib, gave Lily a kiss, and headed back to bed where Margie tossed and turned and squirmed for two hours. She wants to nurse and I am desperately trying to wean her completely. I was able to get maybe two hours of uninterrupted sleep. So today sucked because I started off on two hours of sleep. Then it sucked because after 11 days of waking up with my babies I had to kiss their sleeping heads as I left in the dark and cold. And winter is finally here, which sucks. I like cool weather but anything below 40 is just too dang cold (anything above 70 is too hot!) Today sucked because it took me 2 hours to go through my emails and faxes at work. It sucked because the fish market that Matt called this afternoon and asked to put aside some mahi mahi for our dinner was closed when he went after work. Matt frequently stops to pick up fresh fish for dinner so why it was closed today is a mystery. The swai fillets that he picked up from the grocery where nasty. But. But! But today was a good day too. It is a short work week. The day flew by because I had so much to get caught up on. It wasn't as hard to go back as I thought it would be. I am still having a hard time with being a working mom and I was afraid that being off for a bit would make it extra hard, but it wasn't too bad once I got to work. It isn't that I don't want to work, it is just that I am desperately waiting for some sort of genius work from home business to pop into my head. Today was a good day because even though I am starving right now, I didn't eat any sweets and in fact ate rather healthily. I didn't spend any money, so that's a win. And of course, there are always my girls. Every day that I get to be their mom is a good day.