Friday, November 28, 2008
A Sad Thanksgiving
I would love to report that Lily's First Thanksgiving was a wonderful day, but that just isn't reality. My grandma passed away this morning (Friday) and while she held on thru Thanksgiving, the day was very subdued with people coming and going from the hospital. In true Smith Family form, we managed to have some good laughs, good conversation and great food, but lying underneath was the sense of the inevitable. I can't speak for everyone, but I was sure praying the phone wouldn't ring. We are all very sad, but I take great comfort in knowing my grandparents are now reunited. But it doesn't change the fact that Thanksgiving might not be my favorite holiday anymore.
I had a lot to be thankful for this year, despite my grandma being sick. I am grateful for my beautiful daughter, who more than she will probably ever understand, was a comfort and distraction to a grieving family. Because we were grieving already. I am thankful that I have such a wonderful family who understands each other so well. All we had to do was glance at each other, and we knew what the other was feeling. I am thankful that my mom was able to host Thanksgiving like she has for as long as I can remember. Because two months ago when she was sick, we weren't sure what our plans would be. I am grateful for my husband, who fits right in with my family. And I am grateful for the past ten years. It was ten years ago, the Saturday after Thanksgiving that Matt and I met. How far we've come!
It is a sad time for my family and we have some tough days ahead, but I am grateful and thankful for all the people in my life who are here for me and my family. We appreciate your love and support.